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 Itsbackagain |
04-07-2005 @ 3:18 PM |
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Does anyone know how long I have to wait from the time I lower my dose of Zoloft before I take Welbutrin? My doc has changed me and My system is feeling it. It is freaking me out. I feel like I am going to explode. Today I didn't take anything cause yesterday was really really bad on the lower dose, so I just stoped it... Tomorrow I will take it again. I am having bad feelings of cutting again, and I can't do that. I don't want to. I want these feelings that are suficating me to stop, and I want to feel like I can breath again. I want to feel alive again. Today I think I am dead. I can't sit still, and I don't give a f*** about anything anymore. Sorry about the language, I don't normally say that, but I can't handle it anymore. I am breaking into pieces, and I want to run and scream... Physical activity doesn't help much. And since I can't run and hide, i dont' know what I will do... too much f***ing going on. I can't do this anymore. It hurts way too much. Anyone, any advise? I am starting a new counselor on tuesday, one that wont tell me that "if you pray harder, it will get better." Until then...
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| down&out |
04-07-2005 @ 5:04 PM |
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ok slow down take a deep breath...i totally feel you the past week every night has been like that except i actually picked up the knife...i regret it terribly...and i'll probably have the scars to remind me of how dumb i was dont get me wrong i am not looking down on you or anything i still feel that same way i just started taking 300mg of wellbutrinXL two weeks ago. i was taking paxil and my doc told me to just stop the paxil and not take it the next day and he gave me plenty of samples of wellbutrin to take the very next day i started with 100mg in morning and 100mg at evening for a week next week i did 200mg in morning and 100mg at night for a week now today i just started the one 300mg pill in the morning although i am not feeling all that great it takes time for your body to adjust its the same with everything pills, vitamins, food, sun, altitude,everything our bodys are used to this routine and once you change that your going to feel f***ed up its only natural you just gotta realize this and understand the side effects should get better and just imagine how much happier you will be if you stick with it. i think its important to talk to someone who knows and understands about depression and these changes so you can get a better understanding on reality. i've seen a few counselors and i found yes there a great way to vent because they just say positive cliff note things back to make you temporarily feel better, and yeah why do they have to bring god into it yes thats important but if your talking to someone whos suicidal? gettin that close to heaven and hell talk may not be the best idea? i dont know ? i just get tired of hearing
"and how do you feel about that"
sounds so cliche but no s*** i've heard it and i just started to laugh. well i hope i've been some help i tend to just start to ramble and go into left field and forget what i was talking about i guess thats me begginings of a short term memory.
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| fallgirl |
04-07-2005 @ 6:54 PM |
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I have been having more and more days like you are describing. It's the most horrible feeling in the world. So angry, confused and absolutely exhausted with out knowing what to do. I have been on Zoloft for many years but I think it just takes the edge off sometimes. The only thing I can say is that you're not alone and it helped me to at least know that there is someone out there that knows what kind of absolute horror it is. I hope you can get better and please know that there are people who care and can relate
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| Itsbackagain |
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04-07-2005 @ 7:07 PM |
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I actually picked up my knife tonight. I keep it in my car so I am not tempted in my room. I know thats bad, but I didn't do anything. Wanted to, but didn't. I can't slip that far back again. I can't. Oh well... And yes the scars do stick with you forever. My arm is a living proof. If you are going to cut your arm, atleast do it hard and deepenough to do something. That way you don't have to see the scars forever.
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