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Discussion Topic: All alone.
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 Cra-Z |
04-03-2005 @ 4:54 PM |
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Sometimes I feel a alone. I have no friends and my family don't want to deal with me. Everyone thinks that I have a problem. I feel really bad about myself. I don't want to go out because I feel very ugly inside and out. I feel like people literally judge me before they even get to know me. Life is still the same. People still talk about me even though I sit right there and can hear them. I have learned to ignore.. to just let things go just to avoid trouble because nobody cares. Because I am depressed. I pretend because that's how people want me to be. To smile and pretend that everything is great but inside it hurts because they don't know how bad I feel.
How can you stop being sad all the time?
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| ladyblue42 |
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04-03-2005 @ 5:54 PM |
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I'm so sorry that you're having such a hard time. It can be very hard when you have no one to talk to. You can always post a message for me on the message board and I will answer as soon as I can.
Have you been diagnosed? Are you in treatment? If not, and if you can, you might want to find out if there's a physical reason for how you feel. There is help out there, it can just take a while to find it.
Try not to be so hard on yourself. Everybody has good things to share, it's just very hard to see them sometimes.
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| Casey, Support Specialist |
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04-03-2005 @ 6:23 PM |
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Hi Cra-Z,
As ladyblue42 wisely advised, help is available, please contact your doctor. Sometimes it is helpful just to be able to discuss how you are feeling.
Also, remember that when you are feeling alone, support is available here on the site from members who truly understand what it is like to experience these symptoms.
Please let us know how you are doing.
Casey
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The Depression Center Support Team
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| fallgirl |
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04-05-2005 @ 12:11 AM |
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I really get what you're talking about. I'm 45 and I'm getting real tired of feeling this way. I just seem to go through the motions and of course the people in my life can't understand. I just found this site 20 minutes ago and hope that It will at least help me get through the really rough times like what I'm going through now. These are the times when I look at all options to change my life and because of this @#$@# I don't see a way out. I'm very, very tired, but glad I found the arena to vent. I'm thinking of you whoever you are and want you to know that if it helps, you're not alone
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| joegirl |
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04-05-2005 @ 1:54 PM |
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I with you guys as well! Feel very, very alone all the time. Cry for absolutely no reason at all sometimes. I feel for my kid - he seems to be the only one to have to deal with me and it's not fair to him. I just wish I could be the happy-go-lucky person I used to be; just don't know how to get there. I'm scared to death about what's going to happen when my son goes away to school (and that's a year and a half away).
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04-07-2005 @ 2:44 PM |
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I can relate. I am 43 and I have been living alone for the past 39 years. I am married and have two kids that are 20 & 21 but still feel alone. You see my parents abandoned me when I was 4 yr old. I don’t have any sibs or friends that I can really count on. The holidays are a tremendously hard time for me and this year has been the worst.
My wife prays every night for me. I pray every night that my life ends before the next morning. I wake up having an extremely bad sleep and start the day all over again. At night I wish for the same thing death.
I have been feeling so sad that I can’t even go to work or be with people. 2 years ago during the Christmas holidays I had a plan to finish my life in my car in the garage but my wife and kids stayed home instead of visiting her parents. I have been looking for another opportunity to continue my plan but have found no time to complete it. My wife is an extremely needy person and has always looked to me as her pillar. Little does she know that I am a pillar that has a cracked foundation and is about to come tumbling down.
I have been taking St John’s wort but find that it’s not really helping me. I have such highs and lows these days. Is there a correct dosage to take? Sometimes I just think I can’t take this pain any more.
Anyways everyone have a better day then me please.
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| joegirl |
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04-07-2005 @ 3:13 PM |
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Frenchy,
Sounds like you need a shoulder to lean on my friend. Listen, believe me it could be alot worse. Just to give you a little background: I lost my mother when I was 10 (we beleive that my father had something to do with her death), my father had sexual relations with my sister and half-sister (not with me and I thought there was something wrong with me because it did not happen), I was married when I was 19, had two boys, my husband died when my oldest was three and the youngest was one. I did not get any help from anyone because, like you, I do not have any family. A couple years later I lived common-law with an older fellow and he died a year after that with AIDS. You guessed it, he passed it along to me. So now, 15 years later, I still am a single mom infected with HIV. Yes, it is a lonely existance but I have to hang in there for my boys and you do too. You have a wife and kids that love you; be thankful for that. Are seeing a doctor at all? Anytime you need to talk just let me know, I will listen and give you my opinion. Sometimes when you talk about things, it makes it a little better. Take care of yourself and I will talk to you later.
Joegirl
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