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Discussion Topic: Depression & Post Traumatic Stress Disorder?
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 hopeful
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08-28-2003 @ 6:10 PM |
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Hi Kelly
thanks for your thoughts. I am still not sure about
the therapy stuff but I went today and it kind of
helped a bit. I totally understand about the long
term trauma. Been there done that. It sucks huh.
I am glad you found a new psychiatrist. I hope the
meds and stuff work out for you. Just a question if
you dont mind. Dont answer if you dont want to. I
was just wondering because we sound like we are
in similar situations, does the shrink have you on
all kinds of pills? I am taking zyprexa, ativan,
trazodone, wellbutrin and effexor. I feel like a
walking pharmacy and am not sure if all these
drugs are necessary.
thanx
h
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08-29-2003 @ 1:53 AM |
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H,
I have taken most of the drugs out there, but at the moment I am taking Effexor, Lamictal, Klonapin, Lithium, and Trazadone. I am diagnosed Bipolar II and PTSD. I know Effexor doesn't work alone and I do need the Trazadone for sleep. I can't pick any one drug and say that it helps or doesn't help. When I don't take them I can feel the effects and Lamictal is the only one that stays in my system for a while. For that, I can thank my doctor. When I was on others, there was some addictive quality and the drug lingered as I came off it. None of my current meds have side effects for me except for lack of labido.
The man I am dating currently said tonight that he has never met someone that has a more negative view or can turn good statements into bad ones than me. I am not proud of it, but it is a reality I am trying to change. I don't think the medications are going to help with those thoughts and I have been suicidal for 22 years, so the coping skills I have might not be the "right" ones, but I told him that it is a form of survival. Maybe he just hasn't met a PTSD survivor before...
Kelly 
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08-29-2003 @ 2:18 AM |
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Hi Kelly
thanks for sharing about the meds. I was kind of
worried because I am on five different ones. Kind
of a walking pharmacy. lol
I know exactly what you mean about the negative
thoughts and the suicidal thoughts. I battle the
suicide urge at least 3 times a week.
I still do a lot of things that I had to do as a child in
order to survive. Things that I dont really need now
that I am an adult. I always plan how I can exit from
any place I am in case trouble happens. I always
sit facing the door. I get really tense if there is
someone between me and the door. I always
imagine the worst outcome in any given situation
and plan what I will do when it happens. I become
very defensive if someone touches me. All stuff that
is wierd for an adult. So far my boyfriend has been
very patient about this but I know he thinks its odd.
Do you ever sleepwalk. Most nights I have night
terrors and wake up in a sweat but lately I have
been sleepwalking. This morning when I woke up
every light in the house was on and my back door
was wide open. I kind of worry that I will start
walking around outside or something. My therapist
says that it is because of new memories and
flashbacks.
thanx
h
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08-29-2003 @ 2:35 AM |
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H,
No sleepwalking for me, but I do keep lights on in the house (I wouldn't say it is a fear of the dark, it just helps with the extreme lonliness I feel living alone).
I have the same issues with personal space and don't often get close to people. Some of that stems from OCD (germaphobe). I also need an escape from a room. I feel uncomfortable in a group situation and always feel I am watched and judged by my presence. All of these things I am working on with my therapist, but it is a long road and sometimes I like to sit down and take a break from the madness of awareness and self help. There is only so much energy I can have each day.
As you can tell by the time, 2:30 am, the meds are not working with the insomnia tonight. I can't call in sick on the Friday before a holiday, it would look bad and you know I don't want to call attention to myself. I guess I better do my relaxation exercises and try to sleep...
Take care,
Kelly
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08-29-2003 @ 4:46 AM |
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hi kelly
doesn't insomnia suck! I know about the no sleep
thing. I took a bunch of pills that are supposed to
put me out for many hours but i am still awake at
4:30 am. Well at least if i dont sleep i wont get the
nightmares. lol
hope you get some rest.
take care of yourself.
heather
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