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Discussion Topic: hospitilization?
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 hec
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05-31-2003 @ 4:22 AM |
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Hi
I saw a shrink and counsellor last week. They were
double teaming me to go into the hospital. I don't
want to go because my brother was hospitilized
one time and it was really bad. I have another
appointment next week. Does anyone know if they
can force me to go into the hospital? What can they
do for me in a hospital that will make things better
than they are now. Someone told me that more
people kill themselves that have been in a hsopital
than people who havent. I already have suicide
thoughts why make it worse.
I couldn't really get an answer from them what is
worng with me except for depression. They kept
asking me questions cuz I think that they think I am
also schizo. I see visions and wierd things but I am
not paranoid and don't hear voices. How can I tell
for sure what they think is wrong with me and how
can I make them see I am not schizo?
Has anyone else been hospitilized? Did it help or
make things worse?
thanks
h
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| hec
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05-31-2003 @ 4:27 AM |
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Me again...I forgot to say that they were asking me
a lot of stuff about my family and what kind of stuff I
went through when i was a child. I told them
everything was normal but it wasn't. I just couldnt
tell them about the stuff I went through because I
have tucked that away deep inside and I can't go
there. I don't want to be a victim of my childhood
and even thinking about it get me really upset. I am
done with it. Can they still help me even if I don't tell
them all that stuff?
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| Anne-Marie, Site Director |
05-31-2003 @ 1:41 PM |
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Hi, Hec.
Hospitals are so difficult to get into these days because of cutbacks that if your doctors feel you should be there, then they are not saying it for nothing.
While other people can feed you stories to further your fear, it does not help. Focus on you only. You have not been diagnosed with schizophrenia, but with depression. Delusions (seeing and hearing things) are not uncommon with depression.
Ask your doctor what to expect from hospitalization. A friend of mine was hospitalized in the fall and his blood chemistry was way out of whack. His meds were therefore not helping him at that point. In ten days though, he was much better and ready for discharge. He too was having delusions, and he has been diagnosed with depression. If that's what your doctor says you have, then why think otherwise?
What I recommend is that at your next visit, you talk about your fear of hospitalization with the doctor.
It sounds like what you're living through is very difficult at this moment. I'd hate to see you prolong this more than necessary, when help is being offered to you. Why not take it and look forward to discharge day in a couple of weeks?
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05-31-2003 @ 7:41 PM |
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Hi Anne Marie
Thanks so much for answering back. I really cant
talk about this stuff with any one else so this
seems to help some. The reason I think that they
think that I am schizo is becuase they kept asking
me if I hear voices and if I think people listen in on
my phone calls and if I feel I am being threantened
by anything. I know a bit about schizoprenia and
hospitals not becuase I am hearing stuff from
other people but because my brother was
hospitilized for 4 months with schizophrenia when
he was 19. He was diagnosed with schizophrenia
but he may have been misdiagnosed because that
was 15 years ago and he has been on no meds
for 14 years and has never had another episode. I
went to the hospital every day to see him because I
had to bring him food because he thought that they
were poisining him and would only eat food that I
brought for him. I saw a lot of bad and frightening
things during that time. Also they seemed to switch
his meds around so much that he would seem
better one day and ten times worse the next day.
He was completly psychotic for 3 months.
I am worried about going into the hospital because
of that and also because my parents went through
such a horrible time when this was going on. It
was so devastating to them and I feel I cant put
them through all of that again. Especially not that
they are pretty old and have been ill. I know what
they would go through because I went through it
with them. My father completely shut down and my
mother was in tears every day and thought it was
because she was a failure as a parent. I cant not
tell them if i get hsopitilized because I cant just
dissappear for a couple of weeks.
I am also worried because I don't get paid if I dont
go to work. We dont have insurance for that at my
work and employment insurance only pays 55% of
wages and doesnt kick in for weeks plus you get
no money for two weeks. I have really risen above
a lot of hard times that I used to be able to deal
with and up until now have managed to hang in
there. I am afraid of losing everything that I have
worked so hard for. I just bought a house 6 months
ago and sunk every penny of my savings into it. I
just dont want to lose evertyhing and have to start
back at zero.
I had a bunch of blood tests a month ago and
everything was normal so I guess that my blood
chemistry is okay.
thanks for posting...it really helps.
h
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| Anne-Marie, Site Director |
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06-20-2003 @ 3:53 PM |
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Hec, I don't know in which country you live, but there's such a thing as voluntary hospitalization in North America, wherin you can sign yourself out when you feel better. In that way, you have some measure of control over expenses and duration, particularly is you discuss it with your doctor before being admitted.
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06-29-2003 @ 7:29 PM |
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Hi
I saw my shrink again and was in bad enough
shape to agreee to go into the hospital. I found out
later they had committed me anyway. I'm not sure
for how long but whatever.
I was there for 3-/2 weeks, just got out yesterday. I
still have to follow up with a shrink on an outpatient
basis and with a psychologist.
I live in Toronto. Anyway it wasnt as bad as I
thought. They messed with lots of different meds.
Now i am on 2 anti depressents and an anti
psychotic. I am not really sure what my diagnosis
was. I was afraid to know but I will ask the shrink
next week. The nurses were pretty cool and the
doctor was good.
If anyone reading this is thinking about going into
the hospital don't be too freaked out it is better than
being really mental. It definitely helped so I guess
in a way it was a positive experience.
They tried remeron on me and I had a bad reaction
(totally psychotic and paranoid for about 24 hours,
seeing snakes crawling all over me and hearing
voices and seeing wierd images in my head) I was
okay the next day. This was the only really negative
part and I guess it was a fluke that the pill was no
good for me.
heather
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